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#YRfanfiction #Niktor #Newmans Now&Forever: Torn

Published March 23, 2012 by tdaddetta16

Now&Forever: Torn

Thinking it’s best for him to know what’s going on, and hoping that he’ll calm her down, Vicki called Nick and told him about her latest conversation with Victor.
“I can see why you’re worried. This isn’t like Dad at all! But, you know him, he’ll be just fine. He probably got himself too worked up, that’s all. He’s always yelling at people for one thing or another. Only this time he got a little too worked up, simple as that.” Nick tried his best to keep her calm.
“No, Nick, it’s more than that. Think about. When was the last time you ever saw Dad out of breath, in serious pain because of it?” Vicki persisted, knowing she was right.
“Well, never,” Nick replied honestly.
“That’s my point! Something is very, very wrong here! I just wish I knew what it was!” Vicki exclaimed frustrated.

“Would it make you feel better if I talked to him?”
“Okay, I’ll let you know how it goes.” With that, Nick headed for Victor’s office.


Victor sat behind his desk and listened as his son asked about his health and what had happened when he’d gone to visit Victoria earlier.
“Dad, Victoria is worried about you, and so am I. It’s not like you to be out of breath or in pain, even when you get worked up. What’s going on?”
“My boy, there’s nothing for you to worry about, I’m fine. I worked out at the gym before I came to work. I must’ve worked out a little harder than I should’ve.” Victor knew that was a lame excuse but couldn’t think of any other excuse to use.
“Okay, first you told Vicki you were in pain because you took the stairs to her office instead of the elevator, now you’re telling me it’s because you worked out too hard. Come on, Dad, you know I don’t buy that. What’s really going on?”  Nick asked skeptically, determinedly. 

Meanwhile, in Vicki’s office, she’d decided to call Nikki with news about her latest conversation with her father and all that had happened during it.
“What? I can’t believe this! He’s keeping something from us. It’s one thing to play these kind of games when it comes to the company, that’s fine. But, not when it comes to his health, he needs to learn he can’t do this when it comes to his health! What is it going to take for him to realize that?!” Nikki asked angrily. “I’ll be right there.” With that, she grabbed her purse and headed out the door, intent on getting to the bottom of whatever was going on.

As Nikki entered her office, Victoria began to question the wisdom of calling her in the first place. ‘She looks like she’s ready to kill Dad!’
“Victoria, you were right to call me. Your father is hiding something, and it’s up to us to find out what it is before it’s goo late.” Nikki tried her best to keep calm.
Victoria had seen that look in her mom’s eyes before, it was obvious she wouldn’t be deterred.
Victoria silently nodded.

How did he seem?”  Nikki asked, listening intently. She was starting to put everything together, and she wasn’t happy! ‘What the hell is he hiding? He knows his health is important, and that if something’s going on I damn well have a right to know!’  Nikki asked herself, incensed.
“Like I said, he was short of breath and he was having trouble focussing on our conversation. He looked like he was in a lot of pain too, at one point, but then it went away. I tried to get details, but you know how that goes.”
“Yeah, he makes up excuses and when that doesn’t work, he loses his temper and tells you to drop it,” Nikki bit out frustrated. “I can’t say I’m surprised, he’s consistent if nothing else.”
Vicki tried her best to hide her smile.

The next thing she knew, Nikki was getting up and heading out the door. “Thanks for telling me what’s going on. I’ll see you at home.”
“Bye, and good luck,” Vicki replied, knowing full well where her mother was headed.
Rather than knocking before she entered, Nikki walked right into Victor’s office.
“Well, this is a pleasant surprise,” Victor greeted her with a smile.
“Yeah, well, I just came from Victoria’s office, I thought I’d pass by here.”
“I’m glad you did. A visit from you is exactly what I need today.”
“Oh really, any particular reason?” Nikki asked, hoping he’d tell her what she wanted to know on his own and without any prodding.
“No, just needed a break that’s all,” Victor replied.
“Okay, enough games, Victoria told me everything.”

“What do you mean?” Victor asked, hoping she wasn’t referring to his being short of breath and having chest pains earlier.
“What do you think I mean? Victor, why were you short of breath when you met with Victoria earlier? What was going on? Why were you having trouble concentrating on the conversation, and why were you in pain?” Nikki peppered him with questions, determined to get answers, no matter what she had to do to accomplish that.
“I took the stairs to her office and I worked out before I came here. I was a little more tired than I realized, I guess I’m a little more out of shape than I thought.” Victor hoped, against his better judgement that she wouldn’t press him for any more information. ‘The last thing either of us needs is for her to be digging for information. She needs to keep calm and avoid stress, she can’t do that if she’s fussing over me. Besides that, there’s nothing she can do, assuming there’s anything seriously wrong,’ Victor reasoned. ‘I know I should tell her about this, but I don’t want to worry her unnecessarily. It could turn out to be nothing. I don’t want to put her through that kind of pain.’ He could scarcely ignore the tug-of-war going on inside him, as he considered the implications of keeping this secret.
“Uh huh, Victor, neither one of us is dumb, so cut the act! You took the elevator, like you always do; not the stairs! And, in all the years I’ve known you, in all the years you’ve ran, played soccer, boxed, you’ve never, ever once been out of breath let alone out of shape!  So, tell me what’s going on, ‘cause I’m not leaving until you do!
“There’s a first time for everything!” Victor angrily countered!
“Give me a break! I want to know what’s going on, Victor, and I want to know now!”
“There’s nothing going on, alright?!” Victor hollered.
“Yeah? I’m not buying.”
“Why the hell not? I don’t understand why you’re looking for trouble here, there’s nothing going on that you need to worry about!
“Why do I find that hard to believe?”
“Because you’re allowing yourself to be brainwashed by our children. That’s why.”
Nikki’s eyes narrowed into slits and her voice went ice cold. “Not the way to get me to leave this alone, Victor, not the way to do that at all.”
“Nikki, drop this, alright? You’re getting yourself worked up over nothing!”
“Am I? Somehow I don’t think so!”

Meanwhile, in Victoria’s office, she was just about to leave for the day when she got a phone call. “What do you want, Jeff?”
“Have you come to your senses yet?”
“About what?” Vicki asked disinterestedly.
“My job,” he returned tightly.
“Does it sound that way?”  she asked angrily.”That’s too bad. You had your chance.” His voice held a cold, sinister edge.
“What are you talking about?” Vicki asked confused and very unimpressed with his little game.
“You could’ve stopped this whole thing, but now…well, you’ll find out.”


#YRfanfiction #Newmans #Niktor Now&Forever: Think Twice-Part 2

Published March 14, 2012 by tdaddetta16

Now&Forever: Think Twice

Chapter Six
The drive home for Vicki was a quiet, serene one, as warm sunshine streamed down on Victoria and a light spring breeze blew her hair behind her, carrying with it the sweet smell of spring flowers. “What’s going on with Dawson? What does he want from me? Why would he want a meeting, especially after what happened at the courthouse, and again at Marsion’s? This doesn’t make any sense!” Vicki exclaimed, frustrated, as she tried to make sense of the latest puzzle she had to piece together. 

“I guess it’s a good thing I’m meeting with him. Forewarned is forearmed. I just hope I can get answers! My life, my family’s lives may depend on it! I need to figure this out, it’s the only way I can protect them!” She said to herself, trying to ignore the chills snaking down her spine. 

Still undeterred, despite all the questions surrounding her daughter and her behaviour, Nikki pressed on, needing an explanation. Looking out the window at the bright, sunny day and seeing the light spring breeze that blew through the trees, Nikki said to herself, with a small smile, “Maybe some fresh air will do me some good.”
Once outside, she took a few moments to block out all the craziness that had gone on during the past several months. 
Slowly rousing herself back to reality, Nikki continued her investigation into her daughter’s strange behaviour. “One day, she staggered in, hoping to get to her room without any trouble, I had no idea what was going on, that is, until I found out about the run-in with Gary Dawson. At first she wouldn’t tell me anything, all that she’d say was that she went for a ride, no more. Then, after she realized I wouldn’t let it drop, she told me she was at some club, but wouldn’t say which one. 
She tried so hard to make me think she was fine, that I didn’t need to worry. How could she not understand why I was upset, considering the way she’s been acting, I’ve got every right to be more than a little upset!” 
Her hands balled into fists, as she recalled her daughter’s blatant attempt to pacify her. “It was obvious she?d been crying, she even flinched when I touched her cheek. Why would she work so hard to hide that bruise, and her run-in with that creep? Surely she didn’t think I’d be mad at her. She couldn’t think that, could she?” As Nikki walked along on the green grass, the scent of flowers wafting through the air, she continued. 
“Why would she try so hard to make me think she’s okay? And, why did she get so upset when I finally got the truth out of her? It doesn’t make any sense, especially considering her history with Dawson, and the fact that he hit her so hard, he left a bruise.” 
“Why would she say her being here isn’t good, or healthy for any one, not for Victor, or Abby, or the baby? It doesn’t make any sense! She’d never hurt any of us! What is wrong with her, and why can’t I figure it out?” As her temper climbed, Nikki suddenly felt the baby kick, reminding her what was at stake. 
As bitter, heartbroken tears started to fall, and the baby kicked once again, Nikki was swept back in time, back to a time when she was young and scared, pregnant with her first child and unsure what the future held. Stubbornly wiping away tears, Nikki reminded herself of her goals, “I can’t give up now, Victoria’s future is at stake!” 
Walking blindly on the grounds, Nikki continued. “What does whatever Vicki’s going through have to do with this baby? One of the last times Victoria and I talked, she looked like she hadn’t slept at all, she was really pale. What could be so bad that she can’t sleep at night?!” Nikki shook her head and let out a small, sad sigh as she continued her quest. 
“I thought things were going to get better, I couldn’t have been more wrong! All she’s been doing is giving me cryptic little hints! She won’t open up to me, no matter what I do, or how hard I try! 
What scares me the most is she won’t let her father in either, or Nicholas. Not talking to me is one thing, that I can handle, but she’s shutting all of us out, and, as far as I can see there’s no reason for it! All she told her father was that she had a lot on her mind. What does that mean? Is it work, or is it problems with somebody she’s been seeing, or do the two bastards she’s been dealing with have something to do with this?”

Chapter Seven
“I tried to talk to her, but, as usual he didn’t get anywhere!” Letting out a frustrated sigh, she mumbled bitterly, “That’s par for the course, these days!”
“All she said was that if we really wanted to help, we’d focus on each other and our marriage! What does that mean, and how could it help her? She’d be left alone to deal with this! No way, that’s not gonna happen, not on my watch!” She vowed, fire blazing in her eyes.
“Something else doesn’t make sense, she said that at least then we’d have the support we need, especially me. What is she planning, how does she expect us to do that under the circumstances, and how can I stop her before it’s too late?” Nikki wondered aloud, her stomach tying itself in knots.
“Why would she make Victor promise to focus on me? It’s not as if he’s neglected me the past few months, he’s doted on me nonstop!”
Shrugging her shoulders, she settled on what was the only logical explanation, although, something deep inside told her logic was the last component to this puzzle! “Maybe she just wants to make sure things stay that way.”
Looking up at the sky, as she felt herself being rained on, Nikki muttered, “I’d better go in, before it really starts to pour.”
With that, she carefully dashed back inside.

The drive home flew by, and, soon Victoria breezed in the door, feeling like, for once she had regained some control over her life. 
“Victoria, I’m glad you’re home. We need to talk.” Nikki began a little sternly, hoping to get her daughter to talk to her, for once. 
“Not now, Mom, okay? I’ve got to get changed and head out.” Victoria replied, trying to appease her mom. 
“What? Where?” 
“I’m meeting someone.” 
“Where are you meeting this person? Who? Why? Is it business?” 
“No, not exactly, and it doesn?t matter where.” Victoria remained cryptic, ‘I really don’t have any answers, at least none that she wants to hear. But, with a little luck, this will go exactly the way I plan and I’ll accomplish exactly what I set out to do here. I’ll take care of Dawson-solo!’ Vicki thought to herself, desperately hoping she was right.
“You’re not going anywhere until you tell me who you’re meeting… Wait a minute, Dawson! You’re going to meet Gary Dawson, aren’t you?!” Nikki asked shocked, unable to believe her daughter was willing to take such a foolish risk! “What? Why would I do that?”Vicki insisted on playing dumb.
“Victoria, you’re playing with fire! For God’s sake what are you thinking?!” 
“I know what I’m doing, trust me. I know exactly what I’m doing!” 
“Victoria! You have no clue what you’re getting yourself into; absolutely none!” Nikki exclaimed, just barely resisting the urge to shake some sense into her daughter.
“Mom, let me handle this!” Vicki demanded hotly, before turning on her heel and walking upstairs to change. 
“Damn!” Nikki exclaimed, barely resisting the urge to throw something. 
“Okay,” Nikki took a deep breath and tried her best to remain calm, although it wasn’t easy under the circumstances, “What else do I know?” “I know she came home early one day, and, when Victor and I asked her why she was home, she didn’t tell us too much, at first. As usual, she tried to pretend everything was fine. 
But then, she said she can’t stop thinking about all the arguments we’ve had, so, why won’t she tell us what’s wrong? That would stop all this nonsense and arguing for good!” Nikki felt her self getting worked up again and chastise herself for it, before continuing. 
“She said it’s like something’s haunting her, but what? What could it be? I know she’s not getting much sleep, so, whatever it is it’s got to be something big!” 
“She asked if we like having our lives turned upside down. Things haven’t been that bad, so, why is she overreacting? Why is she being so hard on herself? 
And, why would she say we’ve had no peace ever since the mess with Jeff and Satin Cosmetics started? It’s been pretty quiet since she saw him last time. Does she know something we don’t?” The only thing stopping Nikki from letting out a good, long scream was the fact that Victoria was there. ‘If I did that, she’d come running, and she’s got much bigger problems to worry about!’ 
“Just because Gary Dawson’s out, doesn’t necessarily mean things are going to get worse.” The minute those words were out of her mouth, Nikki heard a voice coming from behind her.

Chapter Eight
“You don?t know that for sure.” Victoria?s voice was calm, unusually calm. “Victoria, we don’t know anything for sure.” 
“That’s exactly my point. I left my cell phone down here, have you seen it? Never mind, I found it,” Vicki said as she walked over to the end-table and picked it up before walking back upstairs. 

Undeterred, Nikki went right back to her investigation. 
“She told us Dawson’s just crazy enough to try and pull something. By the tone of her voice and the look in her eyes, she really thinks he could succeed. I got the same feeling just now.” 

In the meantime, at Gary’s apartment, with a smug smile, he eyed himself in the mirror, as he got ready for his meeting with Vicki. Straightening his shirt collar, he thought to himself ‘Victoria has no clue what she’s getting into her. I have big, big plans for Ms. Victoria Newman!’ His smirk widened, clearly enjoying his sick, malicious game. ‘By the time she figures out what I’m up to, it’ll be too late!’ With a twisted smile and a malicious, sadistic gleam in his eyes, he vowed, “Vicki will pay for what she did to me! She won?t get away with it!”

At the ranch, Nikki sat on the couch, flipping through a magazine while she tried to solve the puzzle that had haunted her for months. ‘When we tried to tell her that Dawson wouldn’t do anything, she refused to listen! It was like talking to a brick wall!’ Nikki thought to herself bitterly. 
Her heart breaking a little more with each moment she tried to figure things out, Nikki continued sombrely. The magazine article she’d been reading forgotten, Nikki thought to herself, ‘She was adamant she’d do whatever she had to to make sure Gary doesn’t get the chance to get near our family, that he doesn’t get the chance to hurt us. But, somehow I’m not sure he’s the only one we have to worry about…’ 
‘What really scares me is, she gave no thought to her own protection. All she seems to care about is vengeance, protecting this family. But, we aren’t the ones who need the protection, she is!’ 
“No amount of discussion could get through to her. She’s determined to do this, she feels she needs to ensure Dawson doesn’t get the chance to hurt us. She won’t stand by while he tries to victimize her and the rest of us. And I understand that, I really do. 
But, why does she need to do it on her own? She’s walking into a death trap! How do I get her to understand why we can’t just sit back and accept that?! How do I do that when she won’t listen to a word I have to say. 
She wouldn’t listen when we told her she didn’t have to let him do that, that she needs to think things through!” Bending the magazine she’d been holding in half, she slammed it on the edge of the coffee table in front of the couch before throwing it down and continuing relentlessly. “She argued nonstop with Victor and I, she refused, and still refuses to listen to anything we have to say. She even ended up walking out on us without a word about where she was going, or when she?d be back!”

Chapter Nine
Nikki tried valiantly one last time to get answers out of her daughter before she left. “Mom, I’ve got everything under control, so you can relax.” 
“Victoria! What makes you think you have anything under control? Have you completely lost your mind?!” Nikki screamed, trying to get through to her daughter, before it was too late. 
“Mom, quit being so melodramatic.” 
“Victoria, I want answers, who are you meeting? Where are you meeting this person, and, most importantly, why?” Nikki trudged on, unwilling to let the subject drop. 
“Mom, I’m meeting someone at Gina’s. There’s really no reason for you to worry. I promise, everything will be okay.” Victoria tried her best to reassure her mom, while conveniently leaving out who her meeting was with. 
“Victoria, wait!” 
Victoria didn’t even stop to turn around, before walking out the front door and closing it firmly behind her.
“Great, just great! My daughter’s bound and determined to go off and get herself killed! What the hell is she thinking?” Nikki asked frustrated, as fire blazed in her eyes. 
“There’s got to be something I?m missing! When she came back after that argument, Victor and I asked her all kinds of questions, but we didn’t get anywhere. True to form, she wouldn’t tell us anything besides letting us know she supposedly ran errands. How stupid does she think we are?! We tried everything we could think of to find out where she was and what kind of errands she was running, but it didn’t do any good! She wouldn’t tell us where she went, the only thing we got out of her was that she was at some shop.” 
Nikki stopped and thought to herself, “Maybe Paul would have an idea about what to do!” Shaking her head and chastising herself once again, Nikki reconsidered, “What am I saying, Victoria already thought I was having her spied on, if I call Paul Williams, it’ll just look like she was right, then things will be worse than they already are. Although, I can’t imagine how they could get much worse!” 
She felt chills run down her spine, and did her best to ignore them. “When we kept asking her questions, kept the pressure on her, she finally admitted it was part of her plan for Gary Dawson. The question is, what does she have planned? 
I’ve tried to reason with her, God knows I’ve tried! She’s intent on trying ensure he pays for what he did. I understand that, but, why is she so concerned for Victor and I? She categorically refused to let the police handle it, her way-solo!” Nikki tried her best to ignore the sick feeling she got in the pit of her stomach when she thought about what her daughter might be getting into.

Chapter Ten
“Regardless of how much we try to get through to her about Gary Dawson and what he may well be capable of doing to her if she’s not careful, and that we don’t need protection, she won’t listen! 
She said she would never forgive herself if she doesn’t do everything she can to make sure he doesn’t get a chance to hurt this family. But, why would he? He has no motive for it.” Puzzled and completely confused, Nikki shook her head.
“I wish I could get her to let the police handle him, but she?s convinced the law won’t do anything, so it’s up to her to make sure the family stays safe! 
But, who’s going to make sure she stays safe? She’s not thinking about that at all! She’s bound and determined to take care of Dawson on her own, she said as much, she’ll do whatever she needs to to make it happen, she’ll do whatever she has to do to make sure he doesn’t hurt us. 
But, she should be worried about herself, not us! How do I make her see that?! She’s so wrapped up in her vengeance and making sure he won’t get the chance to try and destroy this family, or make her a victim again. 
Victor tried to tell her she’s taking a big risk, one that’s not worth the potential gains, not to mention the danger involved, but did she listen? No! She’s so damn stubborn sometimes, I just want to shake her!” 
“How many times have we begged her to listen? All she does is placate us and insist she knows what she’s doing!” There was more than a hint of regret and worry in Nikki’s voice as she contemplated her daughter’s situation.
“She said she won’t just sit around and wait for Dawson to make his move, by then it will be too late. 
Has he threatened her? If he has, Victoria and going back to jail will be the least of his worries!” Nikki vowed with a murderous gleam in her eyes! 
“She said she won’t let him tear the family apart, that it’s not an option. Why would she think that? Why would he do that?” Nikki asked herself, trying to see the situation through her daughter’s eyes. 

Walking to her car, Vicki said to herself, as she looked back at the main house and thought of her mother and just how far Nikki may be willing to go to get to the bottom of things, “I need to be very, very careful with Mom. I can’t have her finding out about this meeting with Gary, it would be a disaster!”

#YRfanfiction #Niktor #Newmans Now&Forever: A Port In The Storm

Published March 12, 2012 by tdaddetta16

Now&Forever: A Port In The Storm

Chapter One
Sitting quietly, sadly on the bench in front of the atrium window in the solarium, in the main house, Vicki sadly watched the rain pound the ground, wrapped up in her own excruciating pain.

Walking out of the kitchen where she’d just had breakfast, Nikki headed towards Victoria, then she stopped studying her for a few minutes and asked herself, frustrated and discouraged, ‘What is going on with her and why can’t I get to the bottom of it?!’
Walking up to Victoria, Nikki gently, hesitantly laid a hand on her shoulder, startling her.

“Mom, I didn’t hear you come in.” Victoria offered her a strained, exhausted smile.
“I’m sorry I didn’t mean to startle you.” Nikki eyed her intently, honing in on the almost ghostly pallor her skin had taken on and the dark circles under her eyes. Trying not to let her worry show, she asked “How long have you been up?”
“Oh, not long.” Victoria’s answer was deliberately vague. ‘If she finds out I’m not sleeping, I’ll never hear the end of it. She’ll hound me to no end, I know she wants answers, she’s entitled to them, the truth is, so do I. But, I don’t know what’s going on, I wish I did, but I don’t. What I do know is, she can’t afford to worry about me, not now. The baby has to be her number one priority!

Far from satisfied, but unwilling to push the issue, for fear of starting an argument, Nikki decided to let the subject drop. Instead, she asked, “Let’s talk about something else. what do you have planned for Gary Dawson?”
“Mom, you don’t need to know. What I’ve got planned for him is my businessI’ll handle it. The only thing you have to worry about is that baby you’re carrying. I’ll handle Dawson, trust me he won’t get away with anything.”

“Wrong, Victoria, I do need to worry about you. You’re dealing wit ha psychopath, remember? I’ll be damned if I’ll sit back and watch you get yourself killed trying to play hero!”
“What? Is that what you think; that I’m treating this like some stupid game, that I’m trying to play a part? I’m not!”
“Victoria, that’s not what I’m saying.” Nikki tried to explain, but Victoria didn’t want to hear it.
“Let’s just drop it, okay?”
“Alright, I’ll let it go, for now.” Nikki hesitantly relented.
“Thank you.” Victoria replied, relieved.
“Victoria, where did you go after that argument we had yesterday?” Nikki asked carefully, eyeing her intently.
“It’s just part of my plan for Gary, Mother, don’t worry.” Vicki hoped her mother wouldn’t ask any more questions.
“What do you mean, it was just part of your plan for Gary, how do you expect me not to worry, under the circumstances I think I have every right to be worried, Victoria!”
“It’s nothing for you to worry about, alright? I know what I’m doing! Would you please just trust me!”
“Okay, okay, I’ll let it go, for now. I don’t want to fight with you.” Nikki looked at her daughter sadly, wishing she could get through to Victoria.
“Thanks.” Victoria tried for what she hoped was a genuine smile. ‘I wish I could get her to stop worrying. It’s the last thing she needs.’ Victoria thought to herself heartbroken.

Chapter Two 
Taking the plunge, Nikki thought to herself, ‘Here goes nothing, let’s hope I’ll get a straight answer out of her this time.’ “I had a n interesting phone call from Paul Williams.”                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   “Oh yeah, what did he have to say?” Victoria asked innocently.
“He saw you at Marsino’s, you know, the old Bayou?” Nikki replied a little tightly, closely watching her daughter’s reaction.
“What? What are you talking about?” Victoria asked, trying to play dumb.
“Victoria, come on! Cut the act!” Nikki lost her patience.
“What act?” Victoria insisted on pretending she didn’t know what her mother was talking about.
“Victoria…” Nikki’s voice held a note of warning.
“What’s going on, Mother, am I being spied on here?’ Vicki asked defensively.                                                                                                                                     “No, you’re not being spied on, Victoria.” Nikki found it increasingly difficult to keep her emotions in check! ‘Why is she playing dumb? She knows damn well what I’m talking about!’
“Yeah right!” Vicki shot back hotly.
“Victoria, why would I hire somebody to spy on you?” Nikki asked confused. 
‘Where is this attitude coming from?’
“I don’t know, you tell me!” 
Victoria exclaimed hostilely, irrationally.
“Nothing like that is going on.” Nikki replied, starting to get defensive. “He was following someone for another investigation she’s doing.”
“Oh really?”
“Yes, really. Victoria, this isn’t getting us anywhere! I want to know why you were at that club, and I want to know now!”
“Mom, it’s nothing, really!” Victoria tried unsuccessfully to brush the incident off.
“Sorry, honey, I’m not buying.” Nikki replied, letting her daughter know her tactics weren’t working.

Heaving a frustrated, defensive sigh and rolling Victoria replied, “I needed a change, okay? I need a change, alright?”
“What do you mean, you needed a change? Victoria, what are you talking about?”
“It’s hard to explain, but I’ll try.” 
Vicki took a deep breath and prepared to try and explain her reasons for going there. 
‘I’m not even sure I really understand why I went there, so, how can I make her understand?’
“I’m listening.” 
Nikki replied, a little impatiently.
“I don’t know… More and more, it feels like my life’s spinning out of control; like I don’t have any control over anything anymore.” Slowly, she walked into the living room, followed by Nikki.
As they sat on the couch, Nikki carefully replied, “That’s normal, after everything you’ve been through.”
“Really, because, it doesn’t feel that way to me.”
“How does it feel?”

“I don’t know. I jsut want to feel like another face in the crowd, blend in somewhere, you know?”
“I don’t want to be ‘Victoria Newman, head of Brash&Sassy,’ or “Victoria Newman, daughter of multimillionaire and world famous business mogul, Victor Newman.’ And, I sure as hell don’t want to be ‘Victoria Newman-victim!’” She finished adamantly.
“Please don’t misunderstand me, it’s not about dad, or working at Newman, or what you and he have done for me, it’s not. It’s just…” Victoria’s voice trailed off, at a loss to find the words to explain what she was going on, she looked up at her mother helplessly. 

Chapter Three
“Okay, if it’s not about any of those things, what is it about?” Nikki asked, gently probing for answers.
“I don’t know, I wish I did. I guess I just want to be able to blend in somewhere, I want to know what it feels like to be just another pretty face; one with no past, no present, and no future. I just want to take life as it comes, not think about what I have to face now that Gary Dawson’s out. I don’t want to have to think about how I might not be able to stop him.”
“Okay, I understand that, but, why go to the old Bayou? That’s what I don’t understand, what’s the connection?” Nikki asked, trying to make sense of what she was hearing.
“Well, you had fun there, didn’t you?” Victoria asked, not wanting to give her mother any more clues just yet.
“Yeah, I had a lot of fun, I’ve never denied that,” Nikki replied confused.
“I don’t know, I guess I thought I could do the same.” Vicki’s voice was a mere whisper, as she waited for her mother to explode when she realized what she meant. “What are you talking about, I don’t understand any of this.”
“I thought it could be my escape from everything that’s going on.” Victoria replied, sheepishly turning away from her mother, unable to control the tears that stung her eyes and slowly began to fall.
“Victoria, look at me.”

Slowly turning back to her mother, and tentatively meeting her concerned gaze, Vicki swallowed and continued. “I know it sounds ridiculous, but I needed to find a place to escape to, some place to go to escape this mess that’s become my life, this mess with Gary Dawson has completely taken over my life!” She sarcastically continued, with a rueful smile. “The best part of this is, I don’t see it ending any time soon!”
“Victoria, that only happens if you give him the power to make it happen. Don’t let him do that, don’t let him do that to you!”
“I know, I know, and I keep telling myself that, it’s just…” Her voice trailed off, as she sighed defeatedly.
“Just what?”
“Forget it, it’s nothing.”
“Victoria, I want to know what you were going to say, and I won’t stop until I find out, so, you might as well just tell me.

“It doesn’t even make any sense.”
“I don’t care. I want to know what you were going to say.” Nikki’s tone brooked no argument.
“I..I guess I just need a port in the storm; somewhere I can go to get away from everything, away from this mess!”
“I understand that, and it makes perfect sense. But, I won’t let you work there!”

“What? Why not? Vicki asked confused, unable to understand why her mother had a problem with her most recent hasty decision. “I mean, you did the same thing, and you met Dad because of it.”                                                                                                                                                                                             “That was different,” Nikki pointed out insistently.
“How?” Victoria insisted on making things difficult.
 I had nothing when I started dancing at The Bayou. I had no college education, no job prospects. The only thing I had going for me was my body and my looks. I didn’t have half of what you have going for you! I certainly didn’t have the potential, or the opportunities you have!” Nikki replied, trying her best to reason with her daughter. “I did that because I had to to make a living. I had no other choice!”
“Yeah, I know all that, Mom. But, you’ve never regretted it, you’ve never been ashamed of it.”
“That’s true, but that’s completely different.”
“I don’t think it is.”

“Victoria, of course it is! I told you I did what I did out of necessity, nothing more, nothing less.” Nikki’s exasperation was beginning to show.
“I know, I know.” It was crystal clear from Vicki’s tone of voice, she was only placating her mother.

Chapter Four
“Then, why on earth are you doing this? It makes no sense.”
“So far, I haven’t heard any reason why I shouldn’t do this.”
“Victoria, that industry was filled with sharks when I was at The Bayouand that was years ago.”
“So?” Victoria asked naively.
“So, it’s gotten so much worse over the years. I don’t want you working in an industry like that!” Nikki replied adamantly.
“How do you know? Have you talked to anybody working at Marsino’s?” Vicki clung to her stubbornness as though it were all she had left.
“No, and I don’t need to!”
“Why not?” Vicki shot back defiantly.
“Two words, experience and instinct, honey. And, the way you;re acting I’m starting to wonder if you have either of those things!”

“Gee thanks, I feel so much better! I’ve got good instincts, you and Dad have always said I did, so what changed? I know I haven’t got a lot of experience, but, isn’t that what life’s about, gaining experience as you go?” She continued defiantly.
“Yes, we’ve always said you have good instincts, but, right now, I don’t know where they are, you’re not acting right. It’s like you’re trying to get Dawson’s attention, taunting him so he’ll come after you.” Nikki explained, getting more exasperated.
“Who knows, maybe I am, maybe I want to get his attention. Maybe that’s the only way this thing can finally end!”

“What are you talking about?!” Nikki asked, shocked.
“Never mind, forget it. You’ll be happy to know you don’t have anything to worry about where Marsino’s is concerned anyway, since the owner turned me down.”
“Well, I’m glad he did. That’s no place for a young woman like you.” Nikk ireplied, somewhat relieved.

Chapter Five
“You don’t need to work there, you’ve got other options.”
“Yeah, that’s one way of looking at it.” Vicki remained unconvinced.
“What do you mean, ‘that’s one way of looking at it’?” Nikki asked suspicious.
“Mom, like I said, I need a change.”                                                                                                                                                                                         “Then take up painting, or sculpting, or something else; anything else! Don’t work there! It’s not worth it, trust me.”
“What could possibly happen?” Vicki asked, insisting she was perfectly capable of handling whatever could come up while working at the club.

“What, you need me to draw you a picture?”
Victoria merely shrugged her shoulders nonchalantly.

“Victoria, the clientele there is worlds apart from the people you deal with on a daily basis at Newman Enterprises.”

“So, that could be a good thing.”
“Okay, let me see if I have this straight. Having hoards of drunk, disgusting men gawk at you while you’re up there could be a good thing? You want to explain that one to me, because, frankly, I’m not seeing it.”
Victoria just sat there unconvinced.                                                                                                                                                                                        Undeterred, Nikki continued. “Alright, let’s try this, the men you’d be dealing with working there aren’t the GQ type, trust me on that!”
“The guys you’d be dealing with there are after one thing, and it isn’t good conversation!”
“I didn’t think so. Victoria’s lopsided, cheeky smile told Nikki her daughter wasn’t taking this nearly as seriously as she should have been.

“Victoria, this is no joke! I won’t let you even entertain an idea like this, I won’t let you go off and get yourself killed!
Victoria’s jaw dropped, and her eyes grew wide with shock, as she asked, “What? What ae you talking about?”
“I know what I’m talking about, trust me, that business can easily get you killed. I know that, because I’ve experienced it first hand. And, I’ll be damned if I’m going to sit back and watch that happen to you! 
Do you hear me? Am I getting through to you?”

“Come on, you’re kidding me, right? It can’t be that bad, you’re overreacting, you’re just trying to scare me so I’ll stay at Newman.” Vicki replied disbelievingly. 
“Do I look like I’m kidding?!” Nikki asked, losing her cool.
Wide-eyed, Vicki shook her head.

“I’m trying to save you from making a huge mistake-one that may very well cost you your life! You have enough to worry about with Dawson on the loose, you don’t need to go looking for more problems. Come on, Victoria, this isn’t news to you, sureley you’ve thought about all this!”
“Mother, I can handle it!”
“That’s what I thought too, but I was wrong!”
“Okay, fine, I won’t go there again, satisfied?” 
Vicki replied reluctantly, hostilely.
“Thank you.”
“What choice do I have?” Vicki asked sullenly.
“You’ll see I’m right. One day, you’ll see this was for the best.”

Chapter Six
When Victoria didn’t give her any indication she’d heard her, only staring down at the carpet, Nikki gently touched her cheek and whispered, “Victoria, look at me.”
Slowly, with tears glistening in her eyes, Victoria lifted her head to meet her mother’s gaze.

Letting out a sad sigh, Nikki whispered emphatically, “Trust me, you have other options.”
“I do, Mom, I do trust you. I’m just not sure how much more of this I can take.” 
Vicki replied honestly, in a small voice. “you don’t have to worry about me, I know you’ve got a lot to do today.”

Hesitantly, Nikki got up and started to leave, then, thinking better of it, she turned to Victoria and said, “Whatever happens, I’m not leaving you. I’m not going anywhere1 I’ll always be here for you. Do you hear me? I’m not going anywhere!”
“You’ve got enough on your plate, Mother, you don’t need any more stress. I don’t want you worrying about me. What’s going on is my problem, I’ll take care of it. I don’t want you involved, I don’t want you hurt.”
“That’s not your decision is it? I’m not leaving you! 
I’ll always be here for you, do you hear me? I’m not going anywhere! Victoria, I won’t let you go through this alone, that’s final! I won’t change my mind, either. Clear?”
With a tired, worried smile, Victoria whispered, “Thanks.”
Returning her daughter’s smile before kissing her cheek, Nikki left the room.
Once her mother had left the room, Victoria slowly walked back to the window. Staring out it sadly, she whispered to herself, “I hope Mom’s right.”  

Half way to the kitchen, Nikki stopped and turned back to look at her daughter, silently praying that she’d gotten through to Victoria somehow, and that everything would turn out alright.

#stopkony #humanrights Silent Screams Pierce the Night #noh8

Published March 8, 2012 by tdaddetta16

This is my response to what is going on in Africa under Joseph Kony’s reign.  This man must be stopped! I do not mean to minimize what is going on, nor do I mean to offend anyone as this is a serious human rights issue. I also think it fits with what’s going on in some parts of the world in terms of same sex relationships&attitudes towards the LGBT community in general. If you like the poem below, please feel free to reblog (giving credit to me as the author) and/or retweet. Thank you for reading.

Silent Screams Pierce The Night

Silent screams pierce the night 
As I long to take flight
Far away from here
Where the message is clear

I can live without fear
Of losing my life and all I hold dear
Instead, I fear my end is near
Is there anyone who will hear?

I cry out in fear
And try to hold back the tears
It seems no one cares enough
To help me rid myself of the source of my fears 

I dry my tears
And pray someone hears
As blood smears the streets
And Silent Screams Pierce The Night 

#YRfanfiction #Niktor #Newmans #Now&Forever:Secrets

Published March 5, 2012 by tdaddetta16

Now&Forever: Secrets

Chapter One
As the minutes and hours ticked by so quickly they seemed a blur, Nikki paced the living room at the ranch worrying. “Why isn’t Victor answering at the office, or at least his cell phone?” she asked, trying her best to come up with a plausible explanation.
“Mom; you know how Dad is when he’s got work to do. He won’t stop until he gets it done. How many times has he stayed late to work on some proposal, or look over some contract that needed his attention?” Victoria tried her best to keep her mother calm, in spite of the worries slowly worming their way into her mind.
“Maybe I should go looking for him.”
“Mom, no. That’s the last thing you need to do right now. It’s late, you need to just stay calm and stay here!  You won’t do him any good getting yourself all worked up like this. Come on, just come and sit down. I’ll get you some tea so you can relax.”
“Victoria, I don’t need tea, I need to know what’s going on with your father!”Nikki snapped impatiently.
“Mom, come on, relax. Please? All this worrying isn’t good for you, or the baby,” Vicki tried her best to reason with her mother.
“And what exactly am I supposed to do, Victoria? Just sit around and wait?”
“I know it’s hard, but yeah, that’s exactly what you need to do.”
Mom, hear me out, okay? We don’t know anything for sure. If you go out looking for Dad at this time of night, you’ll only end up getting yourself in trouble. The best thing to do is just sit and wait for him to come back.”
“And do what, exactly?” Nikki asked sarcastically.
“Why don’t you tell me about the plans for the nursery?” Vicki put in hopefully.
“What?” Nikki asked, not believing she was having this conversation.
“I’m serious. Come on, Mom, just humour me, please?” Vicki pleaded.
“Oh alright!” Nikki pouted. sullenly.
Satisfied she’d been able to stop her mother from leaving the house, Vicki sat back and started asking all kinds of questions.

At Dr. Cornwell’s office, Victor, being his usual stubborn self, said, “I really don’t know why I’m still here. There’s nothing wrong with me, but, try telling Nikki that. She’s been hounding me nonstop about this appointment, she even tried to get me to take time off work. Can you believe that?”
“Well, knowing you as well as I do, and knowing her, yeah I can. And, frankly, I think it’s a good idea.”
“What? What are you talking about? I’m fine!” Victor argued.
“Victor, I didn’t say otherwise. All I’m saying is that maybe, just maybe you should give her feelings some consideration here.”
“Dr. Cornwell, my wife is being ridiculous! I’m fine, why can’t she let this go? There’s nothing wrong with me for heaven’s sake!”
“Victor, she loves you. Just try and remember that, okay?” Dr. Cornwell tried her best to reason with him.
“She can do that at home without driving me crazy!” Victor exclaimed stubbornly.
The doctor just chuckled and shook her head.
“Once she sees these test results come back negative she’ll see that she has nothing to worry about where my health is concerned.”
“And I suppose you’ll gladly tell her ‘I told you so’?”
Dr. Cornwell asked, knowing full well what the answer was, but unable to help herself.
You got that right!” Victor confirmed with a bright smile.
“Okay, let’s get started, shall we?”
“That’s a very good idea, the sooner we get started, the sooner I can go home to my wife.”

Dr. Cornwell sat behind her desk silently, intently studying the man in front of her. ‘How do I tell him this? How do I tell him the one thing he doesn’t want to hear? God only knows what he’ll do when he finds out what’s going on,’ she thought to herself as she took a deep breath and prepared to deliver the news. “It’s a good thing you got here when you did.”
“Why is that?’ Victor asked, confused. ‘Then again, I’m not sure I want to know why,” he thought to himself trying to ignore the prickle of fear working its way down his spine. Ignoring it, he told himself, ‘It’s better to know what I’m dealing with.’
“There really is no easy way to say this, Victor.” The apologetic note in the doctor’s voice couldn’t be ignored.
Just say it!” Victor bit out angrily, impatiently.
Swallowing hard and searching for the strength to say what needed to be said, the doctor continued. “We found several blockages in you heart. Although, we don’t know how serious they are, so there isn’t necessarily a reason to panic, yet. We need to do more tests.”
“Alright, let’s get this done so I can get home to my wife, I don’t want her worrying about me anymore than she already is.”
“Victor, like I said before, she loves you, that’s the only reason she’s doing this.
“And like I said before, she can damn well do that just as well at home, without driving me crazy!Victor insisted on maintaining his macho bravado at all costs!

Chapter Two
Meanwhile, back at the ranch, since Vicki had a phone call to make, Nikki was left alone to speculate on Victor’s whereabouts. “Wait a minute, Victor had his physical today. Could that be why he isn’t home yet, is there some problem they found? No, he would’ve called me if there had been some kind of problem.”  Nikki firmly dismissed the thought almost as quickly as it had crossed her mind.

Back at the doctor’s office, a quick glance at his watch told Victor it was getting late. Pulling out his cell phone, he made a decision. “I need to call Nikki, the last thing either one of us needs is for her to start worrying about where I am.”
“Hello?” Nikki said, hopefully.
“Hello, my darling, I’m just calling to let you know I’ll be home late. Traffic is pretty backed up,” Victor said, clearly preoccupied.
“What do you mean, you’ll be home late?” Nikki asked, starting to get disappointed.
“Exactly that, I’ll be home late. I’m not too far from the office.”
“But, I thought we were going to have a nice quiet dinner here at home, I have everything I need to make you dinner.” Nikki tried her best to hide her disappointment.
“I know my darling, but it can’t be helped. I’ll tell you what? We’ll do it tomorrow night, alright?” Victor asked apologetically.
“Okay.” Nikki didn’t sound convinced.
“Okay, I’ll see you later, don’t wait up. You need your rest.”
“Victor, I’m not going anywhere until you come home,” Nikki replied stubbornly.
“Nikki, you know you need your rest. I’ll see you when I get in. Just don’t wait up for me!” Victor remained adamant. Calming down a little, he continued. “I’ve got to go. I love you.”
As she hung up, Nikki considered his strange tone of voice. “Something’s not right here, but what?”           

Back at the doctor’s office, she was back with the test results. “I’m sorry, Victor.”
“What do you mean you’re sorry?” Victor asked confused.
“I’m sorry to have to tell you this, Victor. The blockages we found are much more extensive than previously thought.”  The sad, sullen look in her eyes made Victor’s blood boil!
‘I don’t need anybody’s pity, what I need is answers!’ Victor thought to himself enraged.
“With all due respect, Dr. Cornwell, save your pity for someone who needs it!” Victor exclaimed acidically. “Just tell me what that means. What exactly am I dealing with and how much more extensive are the blockages?!”
“Well, I’m not sure. But, I need to stress, we can’t panic, that would be the worst thing to do under the circumstances. I think the best way to find out exactly what we’re dealing with and what we can do to fix this is by doing exploratory surgery.” Dr. Cornwell tried her best to offer some hope, without offering false hope. ‘That would be the worst thing I could do for him at this point,’ Dr. Cornwell thought to herself sagely.
“Is that really necessary?” Victor questioned, a note of fear creeping into his voice. ‘This can’t be happening, not now.’
“I’m afraid it is.”
Taking a deep, fearful, and sullen breath, Victor agreed. “Alright, if that’s the only way to get this handled so I can put it behind me, let’s do this.”
“Excellent, I’ll have my nurse schedule the operation for you on your way out,” Dr. Cornwell replied, offering Victor a small, guardedly optimistic smile.
Before leaving the office, Victor warned, “Nobody is to know about this, especially not my wife. Clear?”
“Victor, are you sure that’s wise, under the circumstances? You need all the support you can get right now.”
“Nobody finds out about this, not anybody, especially my wife! You got that?!”  Victor barked insistently.
“Very well, if that’s the way you want it.”
Satisfied he’d gotten through to Doctor Cornwell, for now, and still in shock, Victor headed home.

#YRfanfiction #Niktor #Newmans Now&Forever:Masquerade

Published March 5, 2012 by tdaddetta16

Now&Forever: Masquerade

Chapter One
“Unfortunately, I can’t guarantee that, no. but, you need to remain focussed, and remember one thing.” Victor tried to remain calm. ‘Under the circumstances, I’m not sure how much longer I can keep this up. Nikki knows something’s up, no matter what I say, she’s not going to give up until she gets to the bottom of whatever’s going on with Victoria. I can’t really blame her, but I’m not sure she can afford to do that, under the circumstances.Victor thought to himself, worried about not only his daughter, but his wife, and his unborn child.                                                                                                                                     Nikki asked, as she looked up at him tiredly, “What’s that?”                                                                                                                                                          Trying to sound reassuring, “Victor replied, “Victoria needs you. She needs her mother, now more than ever! That much is clear.”
Nikki tiredly, and more than a little defeatedly replied, “I know, I know, but, how do I accomplish anything when she won’t give me the time of day? How do I do that?”                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      Victor sympathetically replied, “I don’t know, but, we need to try.”

Extremely frustrated, Nikki replied, “okay, any ideas where we start? How do we do that hen she stonewalls and argues with us every time we try and get through to her? Every time we try to break through the walls and barriers she’s put up around herself, she either puts on a show and tries to make us think nothing’s wrong, that she’s fine, or, in my case, she just ends up arguing with me because she knows full well I don’t believe that for one second!
Victor could do nothing but stand there, while his wife continued bitterly. “How do we do that, Victor?”
Extremely frustrated, with her arms folded across her chest defiantly, Nikki waked to the couch and sat down, looking up at him challengingly, yet her eyes begged him to tell her she was wrong, begged him to tell her that things weren’t the way the seemed, and they weren’t on the verge of losing their daughter.

Victor’s expression told her all she needed to know-she was right. He unwittingly confirmed her worst fears, and palpable silence like that of beating heart filled the room, sickening Nikki.                                                                                                                                                                                                No sooner did Victor sit on the couch beside Nikki and try to calm her down, when Victoria walked through the door.
Naturally, both Nikki and Victor eyed her worriedly, wondering what she was doing home. Finally, Nikki greeted her tentatively. “Hey, what’s up?”                            Victoria tried to play dumb. “What do you mean?”                                                                                                                                                                          “You’re home early, that’s all.” Victor replied, after glancing at his watch and realizing it was only two-thirty in the afternoon.
Victor asked suspicious, “Is something wrong? Is that why you’re here? Did that creep from Satin pay you another visit?”
Not making any eye contact, Victoria replied, “No.”                                                                                                                                                                             Nikki jumped in. “Does this have anything to do with Gary Dawson?”

Again, Victoria didn’t make eye contact, as she whispered faintly, “No, Mom.”                                                                                                                            “Then what is it?” Nikki asked softly.                                                                                                                                                                                      “My sweetheart, what is it that has you so upset?” Victor asked, wanting to know what was going on, and what he could do to help.
Pasting on a smile and trying to act normal, Victoria replied, “What makes you say I’m upset? What makes you think that? I’m fine, really.”
Turning his attention from Victoria to Nikki, he sent his wife a knowing glance, and looked at his daughter disbelievingly.
Treading lightly, Nikki replied, “Well, you’re home early.”

Slumping down onto the chair beside her parents, Victoria confessed, “I can’t concentrate on work.” Refusing to look at them, she fidgeted and stared at the floor insted.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                 “Victoria, look at me.” Nikki whispered.                                                                                                                                                                             Complying, Vicki slowly raised her head to meet her mother’s gaze.                                                                                                                                                   Nikki’s alarm increased ten fold when she sw Victoria’s bright red, bloodshot eyes, which looked like a prize fighter’s, minus the bruising.

Chapter Two
Tears welled up in Victoria’s eyes, as she took a deep breath and swallowed the lump of bitter terror that had risen in her throat and whispered, “I couldn’t concentrate on anything.”                                                                                                                                                                                                                 Feebly trying to lighten the mood, Victoria continued. “I’ll pay for it tomorrow though.”
Nikki and Victor sat where they were, patiently waiting for Vicki to let them in on whatever’s going on.
Finally, Vicki gave a heavyhearted sigh, as she continued. “I can’t stop thinking about all the useless arguments I’ve started. I’ve replayed them over and over in my head so many times!”                                                                                                                                                                                              Continuing to tread lightly, while Victor sat beside her, listening and trying to make sense of what he’s hearing, Nikki asked, “And?”                                               Meanwhile, Victor’s anxiety grew with each passing moment. “Try.” Victor gently implored.

“I…I don’t know it’s like something’s haunting me. It’s been that way ever since you dealt with that dirt bag from Satin. I’m sure you already know, but haven’t been sleeping very well.”                                                                                                                                                                                                        With a snort and a half smile, Nikki replied, “That’s an understatement, you get what, three hours of sleep a night?”                                                                               Lying through her teeth, badly, Victoria said, “no, Mother, you’re exaggerating.” Meanwhile, she thought to herself ruefully, ‘I’m lucky if I get one to two hours of sleep a night, max!’                                                                                                                                                                                                            Nikki and Victor looked at each other in disbelief.

“Tell me something, do you like having your lives turned upside down?” Victoria asked suddenly.
Puzzled, Nikki and Victor wanted to know what she meant. “What?”                                                                                                                                               “Where did that come from?”                                                                                                                                                                                                             “Ever since the Satin debacle, you’ve had no peace, and now, with Dawson out, things can only go from bad to worse!” Victoria exclaimed emotionally, frightfully.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                     Nikki pointed out, as calmly as possible, under the circumstances, “You don’t know that for sure.”
“Surely Dawson wouldn’t be stupid enough to come dear you, or any of us! He couldn’t possibly be that stupid!” Victor emphatically agreed.
“No, he’s just crazy enough to do it though,” Vicki countered wisely.                                                                                                                                         “That may be, but, he wouldn’t succeed.” Nikki tried her best to reassure her daughter.
In a small voice, Vicki whispered, “You don’t know that. You can’t guarantee that.”

#YRfanfiction #Niktor #Newmans Now&Forever:Unanswered Questions

Published March 4, 2012 by tdaddetta16

Now&Forever: Unanswered Questions

Chapter One
Not believing her daughter for a minute, Nikki sceptically asked, “Oh yeah?”

“Yeah, excuse me,” Victoria replied, as she started walking out the door. She tried to act nonchalant, but neither Nikki, nor Victor were fooled for a minute. “Where’s she going?” Nikki asked, turning to Victor, puzzled.

“Don’t worry, I’ll be back. I’m taking care of breakfast.” Victoria smiled and walked out of her room and downstairs to the kitchen, leaving her parents alone to talk.
Once she’d left, Victor turned to Nikki, and with a sigh, said, “We need to talk.”
Eyeing him worriedly, Nikki asked, “What? What’s wrong?”
Running his fingers through his hair, and letting out a deep, worried sigh, Victor replied, “More and more, I think you’re right. We need to worry about Victoria.” Walking back upstairs and back into the room, Victoria cut in. “No you don’t. Mom, don’t listen to him. Breakfast is almost ready.”
“Okay, we’ll get changed and be right down.” Nikki tried to paste on a smile as she looked at her daughter. Then, she looked at Victor and exchanged a worried look with him.

Not knowing if there was any connection between his conversation and the way Victoria was acting, but thinking it was best if Nikki knew about it, all the same, Victor turned to her and said, a little absentmindedly, “You know, I had a very strange conversation with Victoria last night.”
Instantly attentive, Nikki asked, “What did she say?”
“At first she wanted me to go away. I waited a few minutes, and, eventually she let me in. I tried to get her to open up about whatever she’s got going on. I could tell something was wrong, since it was pretty early in the morning and she was still wide awake. She looked like she hadn’t slept at all, her eyes were red and puffy, and a little bloodshot. I could tell she’d been crying.”

“So, what did she tell you?” Nikki asked impatiently.
“Not much, she tried to pretend everything was fine. She asked me what I was doing up, once I told her about the business call I got, I tried to get her to tell me why she was up, why she couldn’t sleep. Now that I think of it, she was pretty pale too.”
“Let me guess, it didn’t work.” Frustration tinged Nikki’s voice.
“Not by a longshot.”
“Perfect, just perfect! We’re right back where we started!”
“Nikki, wait a minute, we can’t give up. We can’t give up now!”
Defensively, Nikki rounded on him. “Do I look like I’m giving up?! Do I?!
“Okay, okay, all I’m saying is that we can’t lose sight of our goal. Victor’s heart broke to see the effect this was having on Nikki. Once they’d both calmed down somewhat, Victor continued. “All she would tell me was that she couldn’t sleep.”

“She didn’t say anything else?” Nikki asked skeptically.                                                                                                                                                               “All she told me was that she had a lot on her mind. She wouldn’t even look me in the eye. It’s almost as if she was afraid to.”
“What, that doesn’t make sense,” Nikki countered.
“I know, but it’s the truth. Anyway, I asked her if she was okay, and she assured me she was.”
“Then, why don’t you seem convinced?” Nikki asked knowingly.
“Because, from the way she’s been acting, it’s obvious she’s anything but okay.”

“What happened?”
“She maintained she’s fine.” Victor angrily bit out. “I tried to reason with her, I told her the only way we can help her is if she talks to us.”
“How did she take that?”
“How do you think?”
“She clammed up?”
“No, she asked me if we really wanted to help, when I told her we did, she said the best way, the only way for us to help her is to focus on each other and our marriage. She said to forget about her and just focus on each other.”
“That doesn’t make sense! How does she think we can do that when there’s obviously something wrong?” Nikki’s frustration climbed with each passing moment.

“I asked her what she meant and she said, at least she’d know we’d have the support we need, especially you.
“What? This doesn’t make any sense!”
“I know it doesn’t. I couldn’t figure it out, I thought something was wrong with you, or the baby. But, she assured me that wasn’t it.” Victor was almost apologetic, as he looked at Nikki.

“She made me promise I’d focus on you,” Victor continued with a furrowed brow.
“And? Then what?” Nikki asked, still digging for answers.
“And nothing, that’s when you came in.” Victor finished.
“What’s going on with her, and what do we have to do to get her to talk to us?!” Nikki asked frustrated, as her imagination kicked into overdrive, trying to figure out what the problem was.

Chapter Two
“Wait a minute, Gary Dawson!” Nikki exclaimed, thinking, perhaps he was the cause of this whole thing.
“What about him?” Victor asked, confused.
“Victoria ran in to him a day or two ago.”
Victor replied angrily, “And, why am I just finding out about this now?

Nikki defensively replied, her anger matching that of her husband. “I forgot about it, alright! With everything else that’s been going on, it didn’t seem like there was any connection between that and the way Victoria’s been acting!” Calming down a little, she continued, half to herself, “But now, I’m wondering if there is.”
“So, what happened?” Victor asked, as he anxiously awaited details.

She went out somewhere and ended up running to Dawson, they got into an argument and he ended up slapping her, he left a bruise on her cheek.” Nikki replied. “She was hoping I wouldn’t notice that she’d been gone, or that she was acting very strange. At first, she wouldn’t tell me what happened, then, she finally told me she was at a club and that she ran into Gary Dawson.”
“What club was she at?” Victor asked, hoping that would offer them a clue as to what was going on with Victoria.
“I don’t know.” Although it was the truth, one look at Victor told her she was better off telling him anything but that.
“What do you mean you don’t know? How could you not know? Why didn’t you ask her?!” Victor demanded, frustrated, worried, and getting frightened.

Nikki, in controlled frustration shot back, “For your information, I was a little more concerned with that creep and what he did to her, especially considering the state she was in when she got home!” She continued defensively and wearily, “So, excuse me if I forgot to quiz her on her whereabouts!” Calming down a little, she continued. “Do you want to hear the rest of this, or not?”
Victor nodded and whispered quietly, “Yes.”
“I asked her what kind of club she was at, she wouldn’t ell me, all she said was sh was fine, so I didn’t have to worry about her. We argued a little more, and, again, she told me she was fine. Finally, she decided I wasn’t going to let anything go, so she told me about the run-in with that scumbag.”

“What did you say, what did you do when she finally told you what really happened?”
“What do you think I did? The thought of him anywhere near her makes me see red! It makes me sick!”
“I can imagine,” Victor replied sympathetically.
Nikki offered him a small smile before continuing. “She insisted she was fine, she couldn’t understand why I was so upset.”
“What? What do you mean, she couldn’t understand why you were upset? What did she think you’d do, just sit there and smile after she told you he’d assaulted her?!” Victor exclaimed in frustration.

“You’re right, but, more and more I get the feeling she’s not thinking clearly, she’s not in her right mind…I don’t know, it’s just a feeling I’ve got.” Shaking her head, Nikki continued. “I told her she obviously wasn’t fine, she was a wreck when she came home. She was hoping that nobody was home, that nobody would notice she’d been gone.”
“Then what happened?” Victor asked, listening intently.
“She asked me if I could blame her, she told me to look at my reaction when I found out what happened. She said it proved her point.”
“What point?” Victor asked, confused.
“That’s what I asked her. she said we’re better off without her.” The last sentence came out on a whisper, as Nikki felt a lump form in her throat and tears well up in her eyes.

Chapter Three
“That’s ridiculous!” Victor couldn’t believe what he was hearing.
“Right, I tried to convince her that’s not true, but she wouldn’t listen. She told me to look at our marriage and then tell her that nothing’s wrong. She said that she was putting too much strain on us and our marriage, she said we’re so stressed out worrying about her, we hardly spend any time together. She’s convinced she’s right. she told me it has to stop. She said sheknew finding out about what happened would stress me out even more, so she didn’t say anything. She told me that she’s put enough stress on us both.

“That’s complete nonsense! Not a word of that is true!” Victor exclaimed as his heart broke for his daughter, once more.
“She told me that her being here isn’t good or healthy, not for her, or us, or Abby. And, it’s not good for the baby, either.
Victor’s head snapped up as the last sentence registered. “What? That doesn’t make any sense.”
“No, it doesn’t, you’re right. I asked her what she was talking about, and, at first she tried to brush it off, but then she told me I’d already lost one baby because of her, she wouldn’t let me lose another.”
“What? That wasn’t her fault. It was an accident.Victor sat there, completely at a loss for words.
“Then, she told me she was done talking and left. I didn’t get anything out of her. I wish I did, but I didn’t.” Nikki finished on an apologetic note.                       

What he’d just heard had Victor’s imagination going overdrive and his blood pressure skyrocketing. “And, you’re asure you don’t know where she was, you’re sure she didn’t tell you?” Victor asked, double checking.
“Victor, I told you I don’t know why would I tell you I don’t know if I did, don’t you think I’d tell you?!Nikki spat back defensively.
“I’m sorry, I just want to find out what’s going on with her.” Victor tried to apologize, but Nikki wouldn’t listen.
Sighing, she returned tiredly, defensively, “And you think I don’t?”                                                                                                                                              “Look, you’re right, I’m not helping the situation. I’m just frustrated because I don’t know what’s going on with her. I don’t mean to start anything, the last thing I want to do is fight with you. I mean, all we want to is help her.” Sighing, he continued. “Why can’t she let us in? Why can’t she do that? Why is she shutting us out like this?! It doesn’t make any sense!”

Chapter Four
Pacing to the piano and picking up a family photo, Nikki shut her eyes to the pain seething within her, as tears welled up in her eyes, and replied, “I wish I knew.” Barely audible, she repeated, “I wish I knew.”
Running his fingers through his hair and sighing before pacing to the piano and wrapping his arms around Nikki from behind, around her shoulders, Victor replied, “Everything will be fine.”

Taking a minute to relax, leaning against him, Nikki relished of his tensile strength. Feeling secure in the knowledge that whatever may come, they’d always face it together, and she’d never be alone again, Nikki replied, “I hope you’re right.”
Trying to sound confident and optimistic, so Nikki wouldn’t get scared, or lose hope, Victor turned her to face him and replied, “Of course I am. Listen to me. Victoria is a fighter, she’s strong, and she’ll get through this.

Refusing to look at him, Nikki focussed her attention on the picture in her hands, and wondered what would become of her daughter if she couldn’t get through to her, or help her in any way.
Victor tilted her chin upward, so she had to look him in the eye, and whispered emphatically, “She’ll be okay!”
“Can you guarantee that?” Nikki asked sombrely, frightened and unsure.                                                                                                                                         Victor remained silent, as she shut his eyes tightly, in pain.                                                                                                                                                    Needing to lash out, Nikki screamed fearfully, almost accusingly, “You can’t, can you? You can’t guarantee me that whatever we do will be enough to help her! You can’t guarantee me that we won’t end up losing her, regardless of how much we want her to bee okay, of how hard we try to help her!”